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i love this place
posted 30 October 06 & filed under leaving l.a.
it’s amazing how echoes can change the feel of a place. i woke up this morning, not recognizing where i was, despite the familiar feel of the raspy spring-sprung sofa against my cheek… my apartment just sounds empty and it feels like what i knew of it, what i’d made of it for sure, is irrevocably gone. like it never was. i like to think though that these walls and floors and windows have absorbed the living i have done in it over the past three and a half years – the good and the bad, the heartbreak and the crazy happy joy and laughter. ah. too many emotions ~ and now, it’s in this half-state that just makes my heart ache to see and, surprisingly, hear the changes, the finality of it all.
of course, i’m so excited about going to maryland ~ and so grateful of friends and family that have helped me this past week, especially last night during my goodbye-party-turned-moving-party ~ but this goodbye just chokes me up. like with any friendship, there’s no real way to convey the depth of feelings so it’s best to leave with a good warm hug and a big smile, right? except, how do you hug an apartment? silly me.
Comments
i’m so sorry that Cam and I could make it last night. I hope you were able to say some fruitful good -byes. have a safe trip tomorrow. enjoy your time with your precious family. you are a lucky woman!
~ loriz
give the window trim a caress, press your cheek against a wall, lean against the front door—hard—before you leave in the morning. it’ll know what you mean.
wishes for smooth travels tomorrow.
~ meowgirl
The sense is place is very strong – I can see how you can miss a place like your apartment. I wish you the best with the move, A. I am really looking forward to meeting you here in Maryland…
~ Lolly
I am sorry Ben and I couldn’t stay long last night. I didn’t even ask you how the dye workshop went on the last day. Are you glad you took it?
And promise you’ll stay in touch, ok?
Bacini bacini
Oh, sad. But exciting, too! I’m so glad we were able to meet in person before your move, and look forward to keeping in touch cross-country via blogs and email. Have a safe trip!
~ Nonnahs
Oh! We are going to miss you so much. It makes me sad to see the empty apartment, but I know that you’ll be happy to see those little smiling faces in their costumes tomorrow night. Have a safe journey and savour the sadness a little. It’s always hard to close a chapter of your life, but rest assured that this character plans to appear in your next book.
Love, J
~ Julia
Safe Travels tomorrow…. Hope the kitties will be ok!!!
Though, I must say I was really moved with meowgirl’s suggestion on how to hug an apartment. My suggestion is a little less romantic and elegant I fear.
For me, I have always left a little something behind. I would leave a little bow of yarn or ribbon tied in a secrete place or even a doorknob as the last thing you do. I tiny hug to say good-bye to an old friend that has served me during the good times and sorrow. And a little surprise for the next soul who speaks to those same walls to find.
I was hoping you wouldnt post a picture of an empty apartment. too sad.
i will miss you more than i know how to write.
~ rose
Andreita, you are such a wonderful person…maybe I could not have been able to do what you did…for all reasons…but you did it…power to you! I was impressed how much your friends love you and surely will miss you, when I saw them last night sweating and going up and down the back steps to your container…(maybe 30 trips each?); their insisting that you take your bed back home and the couple of pieces that, though humble pine, they meant so much to you, especially because they are witness to your days in L.A. I am glad we were all finally finished with 90% of the container filled! (I still can’t believe how all that happened…just for the care your friends have for you) but we did sit down, talked, laughed, you all remembered your days in Pacifica Radio, such an important part of your experience… I really enjoyed myself meeting all, I don’t think we would have done half as well as they did…and when finally everything was done…I felt so, so proud for having such a wonderful daughter.
~ T.
my comment was eaten :( so i’m reposting. i’m so glad that i got to see you & the kitties, and meet your lovely mum before you left. thank you so much for the lovely gifts—i promise that they’ll have a good home w/me.
i’m just sorry that we didn’t get a chance to hang out more—if we had, i probably would’ve gotten into spinning as well. :)
however, i hope we’ll keep in touch through here…and i’ll continue to be inspired by your fabulous craftiness. hope you have a safe trip home!
~ lalitha
Safe travels to you, Andrea. It is bittersweet leaving behind a place that means a lot to you, but you have so many wonderful memories to hold on to, and you will no doubt create many more new ones in maryland.
~ Liz
awww. What a beautiful post. I wish you a safe move. And happy times ahead. :)
~ Moni