what to make next?

i’ve been in my head a lot lately. one sure way of knowing this: when i speak out loud i get kinda surprised at hearing my voice. so, yeah, i’ve been pretty alone this week. even at work and at school, i’ve been quieter than usual.

i’ve only celebrated this holiday for real twice—both times in italy, where it’s an official holiday. the first time, i was an exchange student my junior year of high school in palermo, sicily and i think i got flowers, as did all the women i knew. all day long the men were very quiet and complimentary to the women, and it was nice if a bit weird for me, i kept wondering ‘what’s the big deal? why are the men so strange today?’ (i was 16, just barely, and a little clueless.)